After many Crests and Troughs i finally reached Gurugram on an unexpected opportunity , initially i was reluctant to shift there but it happened to be inevitable for me .
New City, New Team , New People a City which i never expected to visit even in dreams ...Finally reached Gurgram with a baggage of memories from home ,Life was full of U-turns and this is one of such
Being stubborn....ready to face any kind of hurdles with an ease and subtle pace , sometimes i lost my peace went out of control but the only medication i believe in is Meditation .
When comes to Work place i have a new feature in project is awaiting for me , started loving it from the first day never gave up on challenges though they were not big yet they were irritating .
After few months of work when i visit my home i realized that being away from home help me to breathe from the heavy Crests which were really out of control
Initially everything was fine until we got new acquaintances in our journey who pretend to be friends mostly any work place can give you good teammates but not friends , it might be hard but its true
When we visit any new place basic problem we face is accommodation and food .Found an AP PG where i can found fellow Telugu mates it helps me to relieve my frustration of speaking in English at workplace until i found Telugu acquaintances in project who sits in south locations.
I have seen the discrimination between the people ,creating priorities of people based on their personal requirements , some fellas intent to show themselves as most reliable resource of the project, created themselves as critical resource , some times flirting when it fails appealing innocence ,pretending smartness in handling things out on day to day affairs.
Seen the innocence , been part of gossips ,craziness, wild laughs , shared some emotional attachments but never been the part of cowardice hope i wasn't without my knowledge too
Visiting Jaipur brings the real me who always loves to travel new places explore new traditions and cultures
When the real me was came out of my mind i wasn't able to think back about my past life majorly near to my college , The SIVA who loves long drives , day dreamer , firm believer of self
I could not resist to think about my return to Hyderabad but it was not easy to get transfer , framing ideas to get but the need for money made me to stay
Loneliness started loving me as if i loved a girl in my previous life (My Life before 2014) , it made me look dull ,pale at expressions started killing my confidence at one point of time i felt like i was moving away from the SIVA whom the team have seen initially .
My Meditative mind never fails me to react on time and with respect to situations thanks to the friend who introduced me to Meditation in 2014 , the time when i see the lowest part in my life
Sometimes i feel the negative vibes around later realized that they were created from inside of my mere imagination and influence of some acquaintances and also the passive behavior of some fellas around me
Language might be the biggest hurdle , the language which we use for business communication will not help us to present the real self to others, Local language communication always crates an impact on initiating conversation and attaining attention . I never failed to attain attention with English , i feel i never failed unless i was not in mood to do so
All of a Sudden i realize that i need an life time friend to whom i can share my emotions its not about dating , compromising physical needs it is all about soul to soul communication . I was very happy when i realized that i overcome at least some percent of illusion of life , in my sense illusion is lust .
We are in the age where lust is confused with Love , Love is confused with Crush , Crush is confused with attraction , i give away them sorry i was able to control them .
Nevertheless i realized the maturity in me the real maturity not the one what people pretend to...
There are many pages which are still folded in my life book don't know when i will have the guts to open up to the world and some times terrifying that i maynot open up in my life ....few people know some part of it already
I realize my strengths in Gurugram it boosts me up to dream about my future , at least helps me to be positive in present , Optimism increases ,Pessimism surpassed for some quantity at least .
Now my journey taking to Pune ....Let see what it is going to give me and what i am going to give it
Journey continues till the end of life ....Life is not so difficult as it seems, it is just a cycle of breathes , breathe in and breathe out once the cycle stops Life reaches the end point it could happen anytime .
But Life goes on in one way or other way
New City, New Team , New People a City which i never expected to visit even in dreams ...Finally reached Gurgram with a baggage of memories from home ,Life was full of U-turns and this is one of such
Being stubborn....ready to face any kind of hurdles with an ease and subtle pace , sometimes i lost my peace went out of control but the only medication i believe in is Meditation .
When comes to Work place i have a new feature in project is awaiting for me , started loving it from the first day never gave up on challenges though they were not big yet they were irritating .
After few months of work when i visit my home i realized that being away from home help me to breathe from the heavy Crests which were really out of control
Initially everything was fine until we got new acquaintances in our journey who pretend to be friends mostly any work place can give you good teammates but not friends , it might be hard but its true
When we visit any new place basic problem we face is accommodation and food .Found an AP PG where i can found fellow Telugu mates it helps me to relieve my frustration of speaking in English at workplace until i found Telugu acquaintances in project who sits in south locations.
I have seen the discrimination between the people ,creating priorities of people based on their personal requirements , some fellas intent to show themselves as most reliable resource of the project, created themselves as critical resource , some times flirting when it fails appealing innocence ,pretending smartness in handling things out on day to day affairs.
Seen the innocence , been part of gossips ,craziness, wild laughs , shared some emotional attachments but never been the part of cowardice hope i wasn't without my knowledge too
Visiting Jaipur brings the real me who always loves to travel new places explore new traditions and cultures
When the real me was came out of my mind i wasn't able to think back about my past life majorly near to my college , The SIVA who loves long drives , day dreamer , firm believer of self
I could not resist to think about my return to Hyderabad but it was not easy to get transfer , framing ideas to get but the need for money made me to stay
Loneliness started loving me as if i loved a girl in my previous life (My Life before 2014) , it made me look dull ,pale at expressions started killing my confidence at one point of time i felt like i was moving away from the SIVA whom the team have seen initially .
My Meditative mind never fails me to react on time and with respect to situations thanks to the friend who introduced me to Meditation in 2014 , the time when i see the lowest part in my life
Sometimes i feel the negative vibes around later realized that they were created from inside of my mere imagination and influence of some acquaintances and also the passive behavior of some fellas around me
Language might be the biggest hurdle , the language which we use for business communication will not help us to present the real self to others, Local language communication always crates an impact on initiating conversation and attaining attention . I never failed to attain attention with English , i feel i never failed unless i was not in mood to do so
All of a Sudden i realize that i need an life time friend to whom i can share my emotions its not about dating , compromising physical needs it is all about soul to soul communication . I was very happy when i realized that i overcome at least some percent of illusion of life , in my sense illusion is lust .
We are in the age where lust is confused with Love , Love is confused with Crush , Crush is confused with attraction , i give away them sorry i was able to control them .
Nevertheless i realized the maturity in me the real maturity not the one what people pretend to...
There are many pages which are still folded in my life book don't know when i will have the guts to open up to the world and some times terrifying that i maynot open up in my life ....few people know some part of it already
I realize my strengths in Gurugram it boosts me up to dream about my future , at least helps me to be positive in present , Optimism increases ,Pessimism surpassed for some quantity at least .
Now my journey taking to Pune ....Let see what it is going to give me and what i am going to give it
Journey continues till the end of life ....Life is not so difficult as it seems, it is just a cycle of breathes , breathe in and breathe out once the cycle stops Life reaches the end point it could happen anytime .
But Life goes on in one way or other way
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